I should be sleeping now, supposedly earlier. But the turnaround of emotions came very very fast after I started to hit some keywords on Google using my PC. I was also surprised to stumble upon.. well… err… I don’t want to give any clues but, a page.. basically, you can read something.
At first, I got excited because I found something, it made me feel good. But later on, reading further, I just realized, how so stupid I am, how I missed those opportunities, how I was very coward back then. AND I REALLY HATE IT! I hate myself for letting those days pass by while I am still holding these feelings all along.
The irony of life. Now, I just wish that I could easily say things the way I want it to be. But I can’t. I need to work hard to win this back. I don’t know how. I don’t know why, why do have things to be so complicated when things can be supposedly as simple as just saying ‘Hi’. Continue reading