Be Careful of What You Search

I should be sleeping now, supposedly earlier. But the turnaround of emotions came very very fast after I started to hit some keywords on Google using my PC. I was also surprised to stumble upon.. well… err… I don’t want to give any clues but, a page.. basically, you can read something.

At first, I got excited because I found something, it made me feel good. But later on, reading further, I just realized, how so stupid I am, how I missed those opportunities, how I was very coward back then. AND I REALLY HATE IT! I hate myself for letting those days pass by while I am still holding these feelings all along.

The irony of life. Now, I just wish that I could easily say things the way I want it to be. But I can’t. I need to work hard to win this back. I don’t know how. I don’t know why, why do have things to be so complicated when things can be supposedly as simple as just saying ‘Hi’.

Sorry / Limitation

Sorry, as much as I wanted that my first post for this year is not a hate post… I feel that I cannot sleep now with this in my head.

You can throw so many things to me, I think I can handle most of it… but please be very very very sensitive. I know your wish/intention was good but it wasn’t the right time to say it, please. At this age, yes, society dictates that I should have one, but can you respect my choice and actions. At the first place, this is my life and not yours. I can to things on my own, without no one telling me.

Sorry. Now I forgive you since you are my friend and I understand your situation earlier.

But next time, if happened that it will reach my limit, sorry but you know me, I can do things you can’t imagine with my rage.

Goodnight.