I wish I am drunk now so that I could have enough guts to says things I really wanted to say to you.
I wish I am feeling well now so that I could enjoy my trip later.
I wish I passed the examination so that I don’t worry about looking for another one.
I wish I was not having overtime again so that I can do more things for myself.
i. No initiative. You are blocking my tasks.
ii. Too much dependency. I am not capable of what you’re asking.
iii. Not planning ahead. Yes, the world demands me to do so. Then, I will.
I want take away all your pain.
So, let me be, please.
Until when will you be selfish? Until when will you hold your pain inside? And until when will you realize that you need to move on?
Though I was not brave enough to ask you out, I know I still have a chance and I feel that we were doing well, taking one step at a time, closing gaps, catching up.
Honestly, before, I thought that we have differences, eventually, maybe do not get along together well. But I scrapped this idea since when I’m with you or, just simply, when I think of you, I can’t be wrong. I strongly feel that we have this special connection.
Thank you for keeping me from getting hurt. But no matter how you keep it to me, eventually, those things will happen, I will get hurt. And now, I am hurt, I feel helpless. Helpless because I think that I have no chance in the first place. We were both stuck. You are stuck with your past, while I am stuck on you. Continue reading
It took me a several months before I took courage to make the move even though I know that this would be the end result, but before I was so unsure when will it happen. Actually, I have no clear plans before. I am just fine with what I’m doing. But then something hit my head very hard and I got a wake up call. I just felt that I cannot continue with this anymore. Honestly, I don’t want to do it but I feel that every move is so hard and limited, and not everyone is given the opportunity to get what they deserve. Also, since friends who I look up to were moved on, maybe this is the time to do so too. I was so particular to what they did to me. It had a negative effect on me. Because of that, I want to cope with it and start anew.
You cannot reach that level, a wall is automatically built. There are two sides of the wall. If the other side is not willing to break the wall, magmumukhang tanga ka lang. Why there are those people na ganun? No matter how sincere, kind, honest, thoughtful you are… wala yun lahat! Ignored, discarded, dedma!
I guess, inaantok na talaga ako.
